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Literature
Hi-Polymer
Today, I erased myself
and blew myself away
Using the hi-polymer white one
that works on everything.
It took a while for a few spots,
like my heart and brain and lungs,
but the rest went away quickly
and now I can't be seen by anyone.
But one thing they don't realize
is that I'm still here;
when you erase something-or someone-
they never really disappear.
I still hear their snide remarks,
see every descriptive glance,
but they don't know I'm watching them
and I'm not taking any chance.
But when they start to worry,
I start to worry too.
I try to yell "I'm still here!"
and "I can hear you!"
But I erased my vocal box
and so my voice went too.
And when I think about it,
there's nothing I can do.
Then I remember that I erased my ears
and realize I can't really hear.
Then my vision starts to fade
as my eyes both erased away.
And now my thoughts are getting fuzzy,
I'm not sure what's going on
as my brain completes the cycle
and turns off everything that was never on.
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Literature
a different kind of darkness
(verse 1)
I haven't seen your face in a while.
It's kind of strange to think about.
put your hand in front of your nose.
do your eyes have a problem?
can't you see...
there's a darkness around me?
Because I'm blinded
by the thought of losing,
so i'll cash in now.
But thank you for trying to open my eyes
even though it was hopeless,
because i don't know how.
(chorus)
All I wanted
was to see a light
spilling onto the lawn.
All i needed
was to turn a light on
but you were already gone.
(verse 2)
what's the point
if i'm not gonna see you anyway?
what's the point in today?
i thought i saw a flicker
of hope in your eyes
the last time you came.
Where'd that go?
I swear, I'm doing okay.
I wouldn't lie, I wouldn't lie,
not today.
Not today!
and please don't tell anyone
that i'm still afraid, but i'm still afraid
today.
(chorus)
all i wanted
was to see a light
spilling onto the lawn.
all i needed
was to turn a light on
but you were already gone.
(verse 3/bridge)
the only thing that's spilling
is
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Literature
bare hands
(verse 1)
call me crazy, but i don't believe
that things have to end this way.
all these crushed up dreams and broken seams
are calling me away.
i hear the wind as it's singing
and the sun as it's roaring it's song.
i feel the moon as it's gleaming
and as it pushes me along.
(pre chorus)
come into a world
you once knew,
but were afraid to use...
(chorus)
with my bare hands i'll
seize the world and
all it's thorns will
tear at my skin but
i won't give in, i
won't bow out
i'll tackle the shadows
and come out with no doubts...
(verse 2)
What a lovely dream to be had
at my own expense, i know.
but when i see the mountains,
and when i see the streams,
i can't help but wonder...
why we drown ourselves in the gutter
when there are so many others
more beautiful than it.
(pre chorus)
now come into a world
you once knew
but were afraid to use...
(chorus)
with my bare hands i'll
seize the world and
all it's thorns will tear at my skin but
i won't give in i
won't bow out i'll
tackle the shadows
an
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Literature
Torrential Downpour
there's a song being sung
on my car's window pane.
it starts with a dew drop,
It ends with the rain.
the dew clouds up my window,
then it spatters on my hair.
the rain begins when I enter,
and I thank God I'm not out there.
but in truth I wish I was,
I wish away the time I've lost.
there is no solace in remembering
when you can't remember the day.
I've been around the world
and under ground.
I've seen many wonders
and heard many sounds.
there's peace in all things,
I do heartily believe.
I only wish and wonder
that I wasn't among these things.
but in truth, i wish i was,
i wish away the time i've lost.
there is no solace in remembering
when you can't remember the day.
I am but one person,
a solitary entity.
I'm glad not to have multiplied
by four or two or three.
I'm but a single raindrop,
prophesying the coming of the storm.
but I'm proud not to be
the torrential downpour.
but in truth, i wish i was,
i wish away the time i've lost.
there is no solace in remembering
when you can't reme
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Literature
Purple Hearts
look in the mirror,
tell me what do you see?
a young man of valor
ready to go over seas.
well I see a man
who knows not what he's doing.
I see a boy who doesn't understand.
I bet you're very proud of yourself
and what you'll accomplish.
everyone is so fond of you.
your mother and father
couldn't smile any wider,
though they know exactly
what you will do.
all these purple hearts
are taking over.
I don't understand
what the point is in fighting
if nobody wins
and everyone dies.
you're tired and dirty,
you ran out of water.
you watched your best friend die
right in front of you.
where's the glory in the blood spatter
on your face, in your clothing?
where is that soldier's pride now?
all these purple hearts
are taking over.
I don't understand
what the point is in fighting
if nobody wins
and everyone dies.
congratulations, you survived the battle,
but you won't survive your mind.
everyday is a war on memories
and a fight for time.
moments of happiness are gone,
everything you do reminds you
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Literature
the Shadows
I'm walking down the steps to nowhere,
just trying to find a place to stay.
Seen many trees and other living things on my way.
I'm walking down the steps to nowhere,
just trying to find my way.
I'm waiting for the sunlight to come out and play.
But there isn't anymore sunlight,
there isn't any road,
there isn't any place to go.
No there isn't any sunlight,
there isn't any hope.
What else do you need to know?
I thought maybe if I kept going
I'd find some sign of life,
not these hollowed out shadows of human beings I once knew.
I thought maybe if I kept walking,
I'd find some shred of hope.
But I found something that I dread instead.
There isn't anymore sunlight,
there isn't any road,
there isn't any place to go.
No there isn't any sunlight,
there isn't any hope.
What else do you need to know?
I lay down, cry help me.
I kneel down to pray.
The shadows surround me.
What more can I say?
I lay down, cry help me.
I kneel down to pray,
the forest consumes me
and that's all that I can say.
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Literature
the haunt
I have a fear of darkness in the night
and I know what lurks in the shadows that get no light
they're calling, calling, calling my name DON'T LISTEN
maybe if you don't see them they won't see you
ghosts go through me
ghosts run to me
crawling out from every space and time
ghosts that listen
ghosts that miss and
want to see the living left behind
out the window there are eyes that peek in
in the mirror there's a face that begins
to show the fever that brought him to his grave
maybe if you close your eyes you can pretend to be brave
ghosts go through me
ghosts run to me
crawling out from every space and time
ghosts that listen
ghosts that miss and
want to see the living left behind
I have a fear of darkness in the night
and I know what lurks in the shadows that get no light
they watch and they wait and they whisper
there's no running, there's no hiding, there's no, no…
ghosts go through me,
ghosts run to me,
crawling out from every space and time.
ghosts that listen,
ghosts that
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Literature
In the Looking Glass
Hello, again.
Hello, Hello, Hello.
I waited a long, long long time;
I waited here for you.
I didn't think I'd see you again.
Hey look, what a fool.
We met in a dream a long time ago.
Do you remember me as I am?
I remembered you forever and a day
but today I wish I hadn't seen you again...
And here you are and there I go,
Here you are and I don't know
why this ends, why it begins,
where it starts and where we mend,
I don't know, I don't know,
hello.
I met myself once in a dream.
I waited so to catch up with me.
I didn't know I was supposed to go and make me,
but here I am, ready to go
and I don't know, I don't know, I don't know.
Hello again, hello again, hello again, hello.
I waited a long, long long time.
I didn't think I'd see you again.
But I waited, and it's the last time i make that mistake,
so why don't you, so why don't you,
so why don't you go?
just go.
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Literature
BASH
the lion
is roaring.
he's taking away
your pain.
the lion
is soaring.
he's making you
insane.
I can feel it,
I can feel it,
I can feel the walls
coming down.
can you feel it,
can you feel it,
can you feel
the walls coming….
the snake
is hissing.
she's freezing
you in your place.
the snake
is list'ning.
she's making
you quake.
i can feel it,
i can feel it,
i can feel the walls
coming down.
can you feel it,
can you feel it,
can you feel the walls
coming...
the snake
is roaring.
he's taking away
your place.
the lion
is listn'ning
she's making
you insane.
I can feel it,
I can feel it,
I can feel the walls
coming down.
can you feel it,
can you feel it,
can you feel the walls
coming...
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Literature
Finder's Keepers
you're always telling me
that I need to be
better than myself.
I'm not afraid
but I, I, I...
I'm not afraid
but I gotta find someone
other than myself.
you're stronger
and I need to see
your face.
you're stronger than me.
you're here with me...
I can feel you
standing over there.
you're here with me...
That's all I needed was to
know you're here.
you're here with me...
you're always telling me
that I need to be
better than myself.
I'm not afraid,
so I, I, I...
I'm not afraid
so I found you,
I found you,
you're mine.
you're mine, yeah.
you're mine.
I'm not afraid, I'm not afraid.
I'm not afraid, I'm not afraid.
you're mine.
I found you, I found you.
I found you, I found you.
you're mine.
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Literature
This Morning
My mom died this morning.
I guess I should have expected it, seeing as how she's been in the hospital for the past two months. It's one of those things you think you can prepare yourself for but when it happens... it's like you never saw it coming in the first place. And then you're angry at yourself for having given up, blaming yourself, thinking maybe if you had believed... But it's too late now, isn't it? And there's nothing I can do about it now.
I always thought I hated her. She was just always so.. I don't even know anymore. She just never noticed listened to anything I guess. She was just in her own little place. And we were so different. I just wanted out. I wanted to get away from her, away from this town, away from this house and everything that I've ever known. I always thought of her as the reason I couldn't get away. In reality, I know that's not the case; I could leave as soon as I graduated high school and never come back. But of course I'd come back. It's like there's a
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Literature
the shell
i've always liked
the smell of wet skin,
smooth to the touch,
and the steam that comes
of hot water on cold hearts.
and i've always liked
to be embraced in this way
that no human, no man, no friend
can copy or keep at bay.
or the bubbles on my skin
that disappear over hills, valleys,
mountains, or down the drain,
never to be seen again.
but there's one thing that i don't like,
i may even disdain.
it's how the water tires and chills,
freezing every vessel,
every drop of blood,
forcing me to withdraw and shiver,
to curse at this cruel fate.
i've always liked
the smell of wet skin,
smooth to the touch,
and the steam that comes
of hot water
on cold hearts.
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xxLostHeartxx
(i see dead people)
United States
crazy bitch with a soft spot for music and art.
don't write well, but i do it anyway. same with drawing. i like to think that i'm unique in my own special way. and if i'm not, i'll figure it out soon enough.

Current Residence: hell.
deviantWEAR sizing preference: M/L
Favourite genre of music: rock, alternative, industrial metal, indie alt. rock
Favourite style of art: music, sketchy, literature
MP3 player of choice: iPod 120 Gb
Skin of choice: mine (pale)
Personal Quote: i'm FREEZING COLD, but here i sit with a popsicle. story of my life.
Interests
Hey dudes and dudettes since i love you all an extreme amount i will let you in on this little secret. there's this pretty new band called River James and they're awesome and have jUST let this new ep out that you should most definitely check out. knowing that most of you have twitter and facebooks, look them up: @RiverJamesMusic on twitter and River James on facebook. but once you meet this ep and fall in love with it and want to grow old with it then join the group on facebook (River James EP is NOW AVAILABLE!!!) and be awesome.  there are a couple of other bands that you should check out... Lola Ray being one of them (i told a friend about them mostly because there aren't many asians in my small town georgia school and the lead singer is one, and she, of course, fell in love with them) but i'll get to all those at a later date because i'm trying to watch a movie and it's hard to think and watch mindlessly at the same time.

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oh and on a different note i will be uploading some new stuff next week i swear and a good friend of mine who's awesome at dressing people up (ok so cosplay but i'm not cosplaying) (and you know her as :iconvietmangaku: )is going to be coming to my house and helping me take some shots for my promotion as an up-and-coming musician (and i'll also be getting together some music and putting it on youtube, i swear to that too) and making me look like some kind of indie-rock star fusion and it'll be awesome. OH and i'm learning how to sew and just made my FIRST article of clothing: a dress for a really tall 3 year old vietnamese girl who is the baby cousin of my asian friend that i mentioned in the previous paragraph. it was really good too if i do say so myself. i have cut out the fabric for the top portion of this dress that i'm about to start making for myself and it's also going to be awesome. but anyway me and :iconvietmangaku: might be starting this like company thing where we make awesome designs together and i make the dress and she makes it awesome. and we'll sell 'em. and they'll be cool and will sell faster'n hot caykes on the ferth 'o julyy. sooooo just wait. you will be in awe.

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but again, CHECK OUT RIVER JAMES. they're really cool. from what i understand most of the members are actually from virginia. but i dunno. i could be confused. i do know that the lead singer used to be the lead singer for army of me which was seriously one of my favorite bands. but alas, they are on pause for now... but river james is awesome too. :) lemme know how you like them.

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